Footing all the bills and other realities

Well here I am staring down the second month's mortage payment, left for me to soley pay out myself. I finially had to get a property management and admit to myself just how busy I really am working two jobs and going to night school and fitting in giving those free required massages at the clinic and other inconvient events that don't add up quickly enough. For clairification I have to do 50 hours of clinical massage and 30 hours of events, which is basically me giving free chair massages where there is something fun going on that other people gather there to do just that have a night out and have fun. I am not going make it by graduation time. I am bummed. I wanted so badly to be free from the requirements after July. Oh well.
Back to the house, I paid the first round of bills and was disheartened by the bank account numbers suddenly plumeting close to nothing and here I am looking forward to another month of bills. My property manager showed the apartment upstairs today and I am hopeful she and her roommate will take it. They are young and no toddlers to run over head on hardwood floors. I just hope they don't have too many late night parties.
Other than the bill woes, I am feeling the pressure of what to do next in life. Massage bussiness? Nursing? Schooling for RN? And my Camp Cedar started camp and I miss the fun and freedom of last summer...... I am desperately wondering where to go next and feel Sarah's pain deeply of that lonely single person life. I could lamet longer over life but I have to go to work to earn the bill paying paycheck......ahh work.